"Lights on Mead"

I am simply numb. It is hard to explain. But I feel void, not complete. Like there is something missing but I never had it to begin with. Everything I do has been empty and there is always something right there within my reach, yet I never can reach it. Last week I rode with my family to KC so my little bro could buy a car and on our way I feel asleep in the back and had a dream that I am still trying to figure out. I spoke to someone about it and she thinks she knows who it is, but it didn’t feel like that person. It felt like someone else and I am still trying to figure it out. I think I might know but I have NO idea why they would come see me. Anyway me and this person was swimming but I have no idea if it was in a pool or lake or the ocean but our feet where dangling in the water while this person asked me if I was happy, Did I feel complete? Cherish everything you have for you don’t know how long you will have it, and other comments along those lines. And it freaked me out a little bit. I just wish I could figure out what I want and just get it. Maybe then I will feel complete.
The above was taken in Wichita, at f/4 with a 30 second exposure. I printed it on glossy paper so it would be more contrasted.